Today was a disppointment for me .. I had a lunch all set and i forgot it at the last minute.. So no lunch for me.. Went to Wendys and got a chicken sandwich. Something to tide me over till dinnertime. There are different times when we are bridges to one another and that we are all connected but don't always see the connection in this. We may have a peice of information to give one another, something that we have never seen but the information was useful and the information helped them to understand what they were never aware of before. My blog is not a blog with new and lucious recipes, nor do i have food plan that i will say is the best or the worst to start at any particulat time.. My blog is here is because i want to help others who are struggling day day out with an addiction to food ( which is mostly sugar) that is very hard to break, because of the cravings of wanting that food so badly that it hurts not to eat that food. Its the compulsive act of eating volumes of food because we have to feel better now or we will not be able to go on. Its the act in which the craving is so strong that no matter what anyone will say to us... We still want that food... Because it will make us feel better.. Okay so you ate the food do u feel better.. ? Well it tasted great and i am happy now for now..........Oh why did i eat that bowl of ice cream> Did i really need that icecream> I always do this to my self tomorrow i will do better I promise.. I can't keep doing this..
Does any of this sound familiar to any of you reading this? I bet it does, i am sure u have heard it at one time or another.. I sure have and the person i am usually hearing saying this .... is ME
I do know that if u don't eat something like sugar or wheat or flour the cravings do go away. And u do see a change in how you feel over time.. Its not a problem with will power...The cravings do go away when you have conscously stopped eating the flour sugar or wheat..... But i have found its hard to do alone because usually are hardest to do this on our own...... Some people turn to a higher power or to a group of people trying to do the same thing.. A common thread to help each other... I am not going to give up this goal to be totally off of sugar wheat and flour... It can be done, and it has been done... Something has to got to give..... I really wish i remembered my lunch today as it was a really healthy lunch...But i will have the lunch tomorrow and we shall see what tomorrow brings... I don't live far away from where i work, so i have left my cash at home ,so i won't be tempted to go to the vending machines.... I have found good results with this.. I bring my water and healthy snacks with me and i am as happy as a canary taking a bird bath..... I wish you all a day of where you can be happy about the healthy food you choose to eat each day...

Going Forward

I have been able to continue with the nutritionist and following his suggestions these past weeks. I am slowly making choices that are postive and healthy for me. I am finding that with the vitamins and food suggestions that were suggested to me. I am eating a lot more fish and alot of poultry along with vegetables and some grains. I have been eating like 5 meals a day two small snacks and three meals. I have my meals planned in my head each day and i am feeling so much better. i am not perfect but postive gains are being made for sure. I have a lot of hope and I speak to my angels constantly about what needs to be done to continue with choice i have made for myself at any particular time.
Stress does a job on us emotionally and physically. Food has been my vice and its been used in a negative way.. It still is my vice but i am learning to take care of myself by eating food that is healthy nourishing. I am learning to listen to my body and to honor it by putting the correct food into it. Also making sure drinking a lot of water and keeping the body hydrated has been an important goal for me.
The other day I went to lunch with husband at steak house that was new in my town. We went there and the first thing i saw was that there were buckets of peanuts in the shell on each table. I had some but wasn''t compulsive about it. Then we looked at the menum and saw that there were some chicken dishes/ I picked a chicken dish with mushrooms and a bit of cheese, along with a baked potato and green beans. When the meal came the chicken was in dripping brown gravy and the greenbeans were in some sort of bacon or pork mixin.. To say the least i was not too pleased. I ate the sweet potato and the chicken scraped off the gravy. Also the restarant had periods of very loud noise, which was not to our liking.. This will be the last we go there as it didn't fit our interests at all....If i had ordered a steak, it probably would have been fine but i am not eating red meat these days so having steak wasn't going to happen on that day also. You live and you learn. What i learned is that to get the food they way you like to is best cooked at home on your stove or in your oven. I wish you all great week in making your food choices.

Bottoming Out

I had an epiphany today... I really do want to eat healthy, the sugar stuff that i am eating is not making me feel any better, especially when i am eating the sugar to keep calm.. I don't feel anymore calm whether it be eating or drinking the sugary stuff. Recently I found a nurtritionist who is going to be helping me with getting my body into shape and to get rid of the cravings of sugar flour and wheat. I have started out with some vitamins and some fish oil to take on a daily basis. I am finding i am feeling better already.. My body is craving for food that is healthy and nutritional.
Today I went to breakfast a local eatery that specializes in breakfast food. Now places that specialize in breakfast food have always been my favorite place to go on sunday morning with my wonderful husband Jonathan. We hadn't done this in years. So off we go to the eatery . I look at the menu and think would be good to eat.. I thought of an omelet but it had three eggs... then i thought of make your own omelet and i thought it would be too expensive. Then i saw they offered two eggs any style and a meat. They had a greek sausage loganica Ibelieve and said ok i will have that with that but it also came with bread and potatoes. I said i won't eat those, I will offer them to Jonathan. I ordered my breakfast and spent the time speaking to my husband and observing the people in the restaurant. As I was watching the people come in and out I realized that this is a real microscopic view of how people eat on a sunday morning in a local eatery. There were alot of kids with families and there were alot of couples there. There were people of all sizes and people who just came for a muffin and coffee to a full blown meal of greasy eggs and sausages. I recieved my meal I could see the grease oozing out of the eggs. The butter was oozing out of the toast and the potatoes looked like they had been on the burner for half a day. I ate the eggs and 1 half link, and gave Jonathan the other link. To be honest I was not satisfied with the meal in anyway. I could actually feel my arteries harden just a little bit more this morning.
The turning point in all of this is that I went shopping this afternoon for some wholesome food and so i can make my own breakfasts with food that is healthy. Tonight I will do what i need to do to begin this program on the right foot and continue to make the towards healthy eating.. What turning points have you come to that have changed your minds in the way you plan to eat in the future? How times do we have to abuse our bodies to come to these conclusions.... I wish u a wonderful week and a week of eating really healthy food

Thoughts from a food addict

I have always heard about the the chocolate bar at the old Meridian Hotel in Boston. I have always wanted to check it out but never got there. This weekend I was at the Love, Light and Laughter event, at the Quincy Marriot, and to my surprise there was a chocolate bar out in the hallway. I was sitting at a booth and noticed people getting into a line.. I asked the person I was with what the line was for... She said the line was for the chocolate bar. I was like hmmmmm. My long awaited wish of going to to a chocolate bar has arrived. I thought well there are reasons why I can go and take part in the activity and also reasons why Idon't need to go and partake in the chocolate bar. Then there was the thought of: I can go to the chocolate bar and really have a great time of eating what was there.. and feel guilty after I have eaten it all OR I could feel really good about making the choice of not eating the chocolate morsels.
What a quandry .... My choice in what to do was to stay away from the chocolate bar.
I felt really good about making that choice.. and I felt that I made the right choice. I know that if I had some of the chocolate the enjoyment of it would last until i had finished my last bite. Then the guilt and self loathing would set in.. I didn't want to feel any of those emotions ...
This is a step forward for me.. Tiny steps like these are a good sign.. I have come to the conclusion i don't need to stuff myself every time Iam feeling a little bit stressed. I have known this for a long time but i have not felt that i was able to stop myself...The change has been that I want to stop the crazy eating.. The feeling i get when i do eat the sugar is not the least bit helpful, nor is it the least bit self-empowering. It abuse that doesn't have to really happen.
With tiny steps i will continue to change this thinking and get back to a place where I will eat food that is healthy for me .

For now I have my lunch planned for tomorrow and also my breakfast and lunch is planned... Tomorrow will be a good day and I will only eat food that is healthy for me . Wishing you all a day of healthy eating and exercise.

I thank my angels for showing me that i can say no to food that i don't really need to eat.. I could really feel their encouragement in helping to pass up the food at the chocolate bar... Thank you angels and thank you for letting me you were there for me...

Rebirth of Healthy Eating Habits.

Spring is on its way and I can't believe how fast time has flown by. Spring is starting to show its face here in New England. The buds are peeking and the grass is greener and hints of crocus's are starting to show beauty. Days are starting to be warmer and hopes for warmer weather are in the air. When I think of spring I think of newness of nature and newness of life. Butterflies dancing and also the buzzing of bees going from flower to flower. Baby chicks and baby lambs flowers of every color displayed all around us. Spring is such a time of hope and newness. Rebirth and New Beginnings are all about us. It is a time of great excitement for all.


I can now go on my walks around my neighborhood to take in the spring air and to watch nature in action. Today, I went for a nice through Boston in the Qunicy Market area.... It was so beautiful there.

A week has passed and yesterday has marked the first day of Spring. I was quite cool outside but the sun was shining brightly. I took notice all through the week of my eating habits. I seem to be eating when I am feeling alot of stress in my life.. What else can I do to replace the need to eating food that is not good for me. I have spoken of this often but I repeat continually the pattern of overeating during times of stress.

For this weekend I plan to do some walking and to take notice of my eating. I want to buy to food that is healthly and also choose food that will keep me from eating flour wheat and sugar. I will report back tonight how I have done during today. Today is a sunny day and i will be outside enjoying the great weather today. I wish you a great day and a day that you can be at peace with.

Last week, I spoke of how I was going deal with my food over the three day weekend. I wrote about how I will plan my food for each day and each meal during those three days. The three days went quite well, as far as not eating flour, sugar and wheat. I was also able to stay away from coffee too. In between meals I drank decaffenated tea and water. I had a piece of fruit in the late afternoon all three days. There was snow all day sunday, so I was home safe from all temptation. Monday we had a meal out and had soup and a salad. The work week that began on Tuesday was very hectic and didn't always make the choices that were the best for me. Though I did find I did have more water and decaffenated tea to drink during the day. I still have to work on the trip from work to home. I need to be sure this next week to make sure i have a plan each day to be sure I have something that will not cause a craving. The snack will most likely be a piece of fruit and some protein or dairy, like apple and nonfat yougurt with cinnamon. That will keep the cravings down and also keep this food addict away from the foods that are not helpful for striving towards recovery. In the last week I am finding that keeping away from red meat and eating more meals that are grains and vegetables.

I am sitting here watching the figure skating on television. The moves and the precision of their skating is amazing. The hours of practice that goes into this sport, and the dedication to their craft to me is wonderful. And then there are the hours of exercise and weight training, and watching what they put into their mouths, and eating very healthy. I have been thinking about exercise a lot this past week. Trying to figure out in the dead of winter where I am going to be able to find the time and place to exercise. My days of ice skating, I think are over and too cold to walk out side. But walking in the mall could be an option, or walking around work if you have a big area in which you workin. Then there is parking your car farther away from where you want to go like at work or shopping. Taking advantage of the warmer days, getting out and walking for 15 minutes. As I writing I am remembering that there is an exercise room in my complex.I really need to check this out... Sooner the better.. I hate exercise.. I was brought up in an era where sports and exercise were all that popular, girls, as they are today.. I believe it had the area in which i was living as young girl. There wasn't an team sports for me then.
I did love my bike and traveled long distances, loved to swim and also loved to row a boat or a canoe when younger. Maybe its time to bring back some of these interests that were enjoyed in the past. The main picture on this blog is Fort Hill in Eastham, MA. There are beautiful trails there and I really enjoy walking on them.... I can't wait till spring to go back there. Exercise is important and it also helps with the intake of food especially if eating on volume.. This week I am going to find ways to do some exercise. At least to walk for 15 minutes to the exercise in my complex and check out the new exercise equipment..Maybe I will even attempt to go on the treadmill. This week think about how you can incorporate some exercise into your schedule... Good luck with this.. Have a great week and feel free to comment on how you are going to incorporate some exercise into your next week.

Ok its the weekend and it is a three day weekend. Will this be the weekend I will get my act together, concerning my food issues.? I have no excuse when I think about it. Its going to be very cold and its going to be snowing too. Planning my meals will be fairly simple. I will plan each meal for tomorrow tonight by writing down what I will be eating. I will not set foot in the coffee shops or candy shops because I want to keep the sugar out of my body these next three days. When cravings hit me, I will write down whether this is physical or mental. Am I really hungry or am I stressed out by something that has happend. Am I trying to numb out some feelings that I want to avoid? Is there something more healthy to eat at this time? Or is there something I could do to keep busy and help me to forget this binge I am about to indulge in? Is it worth the feelings thatA will be felt, after I eat this sugary food.?
Today, I was speaking to a friend who is also battling an addiction( not food). We were speaking of why we each feel why we have the addiction. There were many reasons why, and most of our individual reasons were very similar. In speaking to this friend, it seems that we use our addiction;

• When we are stressed
• When we want to numb our feelings
• When we want to relax
• When we are out with friends socially
• When we are feeling lonely or confused
• When we are worried
• When we are angry
• When we want to feel part of a group using our addiction vice

I have spoken about this many times. What can we do to replace the cookies or soda? Can we find something else to drinkor eat, which is just as cool and tasteful. " What about a drink of ice tea or a piece of fruit? "But I want it now"! If we could past that thought and start to think a bit more rationally instead of acting like a crazed person, with the goal of harming ourselves, with the substance, we use to supposedly soothe ourselves, then there is hope, that an alternate plan could be put in place.

This weekend I will be more aware of what is triggering me to want it now. In writing down these thought triggers of wanting it now, will help me to see a pattern of what is entailed. I don't think I have to do this alone. I can ask my higher power, who for me is God. I can ask my angels to guide me and to remind me to stay on track over the next three days. When the three days are over, I'll post an article as to how I did with this thinking. I wish you luck in your own personal struggles with food and pray that you are able to be true and to feel the peace you so justly deserve.... Please feel free to share your struggles and share how you are helping yourselves.