The case of the missing food addict

I started this blog in 2008 to help myself and others in dealing with food addiction. I stopped writing in this blog last fall because i wasn't getting anywhere with progressing towards recovery. I just felt that this has not helped any one because there still is no success story. Each entry has a big fat promise of true recovery. And each entry has a promise of starting again at new recovery. Each entry was short of the recovery because i could not keep away from the food and had a million reasons why this was happening. I didn't feel i was qualifed to talk about this until i found recovery for myself.

This year has been a year of dealing with several medical issues, which has lead to cutting out certain foods in my diet and trying to control the issues i have had with the food. I am at the point now where i am willing to try recovery once again considering the fact that there is much i am not able to eat anyways. I have done some shopping for food that i can eat and I have begun the food program...... I am not here to prescribe a food program for you nor am i qualified.. But what i can do is to talk about the way i can be motivated to do what i need to do to getting started on the my foodo program..

But before i start that i need to speak about the place i was in when i decided i wasn't in recovery again. I was at the point where i knew i had no choice but to stay to myself.. How much is enough? Is that place close at hand or is it far away. Then i thought, there is no place in my mind that i will ever truly be satisfied with certain foods.. i will always to eat them because they are so good. So now that i know that need will truly ever be satisfied its time for me to find other ways to feeling satisfied. What else do i like to do besides eating? Eating cant possibly be the only coping mechanism i have in dealing with life? Could there be something else. I thought about it. I decided that i needed explore this query. What were other ways of dealing with life that lasted longer then the 10 seconds of pleasure that came out of eating a brownie sundae?

I could do the following things

• write about my feelings
• read a book
• ignore the impulsive feeling of wanting to pig out
• call a friend
• call a family member
• clean a closet
• paint a room
• plant a garden
• finish a project
• write a poem about my feelings
• go for a walk
• leave the house
• listen to a cd while drinking a big glass of water

The list is endless and could go on for pages, especially if i was with a group and we all participated in the discussion at hand. It is interesting how there are some people that don't have the same issues with sugar products. Its like they just don't have the same problems of not being able to stop eating. They are in full control and can stop at eating one piece of sugar immediately. I do envy people with that control.

I went out to buy a few cookbooks that looked very interesting. They have helped me a bit with ideas for snacks and for smoothies... I need to sit down again to readthe book so i can use more of the recipes.

The fact that i have started the thinking of recovery is a good thing its a start. I need to do this for me and also to help my husband to eat well too. Tonight i have a meal planned its healthy and well rounded. i can wait to eat it. I wish you well in your endeavors towards healthy eating.

My plan for this week is to eat food that is healthy and will help in my goals to losing weight i no longer have an interest in carrying around. So one day at a time i will keep the weight off lose what i dont need and eat the food that is good for me... Thank you angels for getting back to writing in this blog... It has been such a long time ....